• books,  friendship,  inner world,  jesus,  parenting,  self-awareness,  writing

    Coming off a bender

    Let me give you a glimpse into my life recently. I have eaten a total of: Three big Macs, two bars of chocolate, 5 scones, one bag of doritos (the big size) Drank a total of: 1 milkshake, two bottles of wine (shared with friends…mostly) and 57 cups of coffee. This has been washed down with gallons of water because it’s so cold and dry in Cleveland right now that I need to stay hydrated so I don’t shrivel up. Obsessed about: How the stretch marks on my thighs look like tributaries of the Mississippi delta That my six year old seems to be “discovering” his private parts and the girls at…

  • inner world,  leadership,  self-awareness

    God grant me the serenity to accept the ideas I cannot execute

    Recently I led a seminar with my colleague Doug at InterVarsity‘s national staff conference. When we were debriefing how it went he told me frankly “your creativity stresses me out.” This is something coming from one of the most creative people in our movement who has literally helped create a program called “start something new.” Then my friend Adam posted this blog that I totally stole the title, idea and the picture from. I left such a long comment on his post I thought, “what the heck, I should just post this on my own blog!” This is an area of growth for me. I have so many ideas that I can…

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    Radioactive Writerman

    This coming Monday I am going to look a little bit like this picture of Spiderman.  Not slinging webs, not fighting bad guys or upside-down kissing anyone while I hang from a building.  Just sitting, writing and being radioactive. Recently I found out that my thyroid was messed up with hypothroidism and that I’d have to undergo radioactive iodine treatment to cure it.  Basically I have been unable to make it through the day without taking a nap, going to bed ridiculously early and having crazy mood swings. Most mornings I wake up feeling hung-over because I’m so sluggish. I have just felt like a giant loser because I can’t…

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    write it…maybe?

    It felt a little like InterVarsity Press’ version of Carly Rae Jepsen- “we like your concept, so write it maybe” when I got the email with a solid “not yet” regarding my book proposal.  I have been putting off writing this blog post in part because I’ve been sorting through next steps of where to go from here with their suggestions to resubmit my proposal, staffing a student conference in MI, throwing a pity party, and getting advice from other author friends.    Though I was pretty down when I got the email, especially because Dave was out of town and I was with the boys by myself (and my…

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    waiting

    When I’m waiting for something  I vacillate between excitement, despair and frantic energy trying to fill the moments I’m counting down until the event.  This was true when I was pregnant with both of my sons and turned into a crazy lady (according to my husband), when I anticipate a party, meeting or arrival of guests. And this is what it’s been like since I submitted my book proposal to InterVarsity Press this past Labor day. Not quite the end of August goal I had, but still pretty darn close. Since I submitted the proposal on Labor day it’s been super difficult not to count down the days since I submitted it-…

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    The 60 day challenge; can I write a book proposal?

    Starting tomorrow, May 1st I’m starting on a book project. Since I’m a slacker who doesn’t get stuff done unless I have a deadline, I thought I’d go public about the project for some accountability & encouragement. I’ve been wanting to write a book for awhile, but as any of my friends who are authors have told me there is this thing called resistance when it comes to writing. Resistance whether it’s scheduling the time to do it, the mental hurdles of believing an idea is worth taking the time to write about, or finding an idea in the first place. As Renee Zellweger as a new breakout star said in…