I so don’t want to write this post. Even though I’ve dedicated this months Sidewalk Theologian challenge to practicing thankfulness, I feel bitter & crusty today and just want to read my latest copy of Entertainment Weekly about the new Twilight movie and wallow. Bezoar is my word I use instead of swearing- I learned about in Harry Potter- anyone remember which book it was from? This summer Dave and I were hanging out with our friend Jess who is studying vet. science at Cornell & we learned that a bezoar is a real thing! I am impressed by both J.K. Rowling and Jess’ smartness.
O.K. back to being thankful while crusty. I don’t really want to recount the reasons of said crustyness today but the gist is encompassed in this haiku:
funding falling through
mess in the home overwhelms
too much work remains
Tonight I forced myself to spend 15 minutes doing dishes even though I have 900 pages of reading for class, a talk to prep for Thursday and the rest of my home to clean and the list goes on! So I put on Gwen Stefani on Pandora radio while I cleaned what absolutely was all of our pots and pans which somehow we’ve managed to dirty in the 2 days we’ve been home. I was thinking about this post & how I was dreading writing it because I just don’t feel thankful today even though I’m supposed to blog about thankfulness today. I was scrubbing a spatula when the Black Eyed Peas “where is the love?” came on. It brought me back to this spring when I preached the book of Phillipians to 200 college students with InterVarsity. I used the song on one of the nights as a way to help students think about how they’re showing God’s love to others in the midst of a messed up, broken world. The last night of the conference I preached on Phillipians chapter 4 which has the verse:
“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”
When I was studying these passages of scripture this spring, I found it so interesting that the recommendation for an anxious heart is thanksgiving. Not just prayer, but prayer with thanksgiving. Apparently, Jesus doesn’t like my crustiness either 😉 So here’s my challenge to you & to me this week- be thankful in response to your crusty anxious heart. Tonight, right before I go to bed, I’m going to bust out the new green (of course green!) journal Dave bought me and write down five things I’m thankful for. If you’re a spiritual person, or a person who follows Jesus, why not write out a prayer thanking God for the ways he cares for you? It can’t hurt right?
I know that you could probably list a whole lot of stuff you’re feeling bitter & crusty about too. But let’s fight all those anxieties that bubble to the surface of our minds by practicing thankfulness together even when it’s the last thing we want to do.
To help you on your way to thankfulness here is a silly video I just find myself bizzarly drawn to time and time again. Reuben also really likes it. Enjoy and be thankful for crazy kids who narrate kitten books.